Life is so hard sometimes. We all have our own pain and our own struggles and our own things that are hard. One isn't worse than the other. Each has it's own pain. I mention it often here ----- it's part of my own therapy to acknowledge it when I need to --- but my family has been through life-altering struggles since last March. Struggles that changed so many things and frankly, fundamentally changed who I am and who I want to be.
Today, as I visited my blog-friends and real-life friends online, there were tears streaming down my face. Feeling pain for them -- some of these people I have known for a long time and some I only know through the web. Today was the first time I had even known of one of them. But today, I realized that there are so many things out of our control in life; so many unfair hands dealt out.
I want to reach out but what do I say when both my babies is playing right here next to me and all my friend wants is to be blessed with a child? How do I let people who I don't know "for real" that their story made an impact on me - that because of their story I will hug mu husband and daughter a little tighter today and I will make it my mission to educate people about Marfan Syndrome?
I don't know if there is anything I can do. Or how to get started doing something. And so, today, I stood on my deck, looked up at the gorgeous sunny springtime sky, and said a prayer. Please, whatever you believe in, look around and realize that while life isn't fair and sometimes it just seems that nothing can go your way, you are surrounded by so many beautiful things. And that there is at least one person out there sending prayers for happier times for you.